Dustin, I will always remember the first
time I saw your sweet face.
I was afraid when they air lifted us.
I just wanted you born healthy
for me to embrace.
My firstborn child, my soul, my heart,
my only son, I never ever imagined
you would be taken by a gun.

I have so many questions
but no answers are ever told,
There is so much more being left unsaid,
this I truly know.
I refuse to give up and
accept what they say
for I know you better than any other,
I knew and loved you
before you were born,
your best friend, confidante and mother.

I will forever be haunted
by the knock upon our door that night.
In MY heart I felt so helpless
and knew that our lives would
never again be right.
Could you hear me as I held your hand
and kept telling you how
much you were loved?
I know that "tear" was a sign
that you could hear me,
but Jesus was calling you from above.

I know you had to go with Him,
you couldn't tell Him no,
I remember begging and pleading,
I just couldn't let you go.
Your legacy still lives upon this earth,
thru the "organ donor plan".
You will always be remembered
even in death, as a loving, giving man.

You gave so much love to everyone,
me, your dads, grandparents,
sisters, friends, and pets.
Lugar still gets this look in his eyes,
I know he's thinking of you,
Like us, he will never forget.
In my dreams you come to me
and I can see your beautiful face,
Oh baby boy, what happened,
how did we arrive at this horrible place?

The phrase "Peace Out" is heard by me,
and I know that you are letting me know,
That you are an angel now,
Jesus called and you had to go.
But I also always feel you
right here by my side,
Tears pour like waterfalls,
these I just cant hide.

The pain so deep and sharp,
I feel that I cant breathe,
Oh my son. My baby boy,
why did you have to leave?

Celebrate with Jesus and the angels,
my child, tell them to hold me tight,
Ask Him to please watch over us
each and every night.
We will join you there one day
and I will enter with a shout,
My precious son, my life, my heart,
you will hear me say these words,
"Peace Out"
Love you my sweet angel son, Mom

Wrote by Dj French,
Shane's Mom with love for Jeri,
Dustin's Mom in memory of Dustin 8/30/08